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# My CPTSD Hypervigilance
- URL: https://cptsd-insights.ghost.io/my-cptsd-hypervigilance/
- Published: 2026-09-17T11:00:16.000Z
- Updated: 2026-09-17T13:27:44.000Z
- Author: CoreKintsugi

The brain is stuck in identifying danger, and forcefully and immediately solving (disarming) it...  
..any problem, question, puzzle... sadly, any internally perceived possibility of an interpersonal conflict. It's a default mode...which I didn't even notice I had for decades.

To keep going...my system produces stress hormones...I'm permanently on internally produced speed (amphetamines)...  
...days and weeks (maybe decades) past natural exhaustion.

A state of "I have to meet expectations and demands to keep everyone happy"...avoid conflict at absolutely any personal cost...

...no room to risk the potential conflict just being a figment of my imagination...

...as any conflicts, with anyone...means death.

I safety-wise (even though don't know of a rational threat) perceive the world as a toddler living among murderous monsters...

...until one either realises one’s safety and can stop...

...or continuous until one cracks.