About CPTSD insights

I started CPTSD insights in the hope to that I can help others avoid having to experience what I experienced. I grew up in a family where all my physical needs were met...well, maybe except physical closeness. Until my late 30s I was not even aware that I was living with constant fear, as I had never felt differently. Only about two decades after my first severe crisis, which lasted two years, did I finally realize what I was actually doing. Living in constant interpersonal fear, terror...but just showing it all down and functioning at all cost. I first came across CPTSD after clicking on a link in a blog post about Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria. It is the moment which changed my life. Not immediately, as the only thing that changed was that I now knew I had CPTSD, I have since been in severe crisis and been to clinics again, but it was the moment where the tide started to turn.

Nobody should have to experience what I did. And I just hope my writing will help at least one person...while also allowing me to put my thoughts into words.

Never give up, no matter how awful it feels. I now know, even someone who feels like they are being tortured to death from within, even for them, with the right understanding and support, life can be enjoyable again.

Despite all I describe in my posts, I consider my existence on this planet little short of a miracle at the end of 3.5 billion years of evolution...and I only have this one life...and intend to find peace and happiness on as many days as I can.

Yours, CoreKintsugi